Sometimes in life, the path seems to disappear behind obstacle after obstacle. First we try everything in our power to move, fight with, go around, negotiate…and eventually surrender. I have thought about this sometimes when untangling knots in chains. The more quickly and frantically I try to untangle the web, the tighter and more resistant it becomes. But when I mindfully approach what ‘is’ then I can ease-fully pull a chain from its tightly wound knotted self.
I cannot say that this is a quality that I have mastered by any means...the art of surrender and mindfulness have proven to be a lifelong practice for me, and one that has made my life increasingly more meaningful with each round.
2023 was my invitation back into surrender on a level even deeper than I had previously gone when making the decision to leave my old life. I felt like I couldn’t possibly surrender and let go any more than I had at that time…but that was just one aspect of the unfolding that was to take place.
‘The Case of the Missing Jewels’...it’s hard to describe the feeling when an entire order of crystals goes missing in transit…when you spent most of what little supply money you had on them and you need them just to make sure your business stays afloat and that you can take care of your family. It’s even harder to describe how it feels when this happens more than once (from different suppliers too) in the span of a few months.
This is what happened last year behind the scenes at Hawk Couture.
The missing crystals, a broken thumb, a social media platform that toys with creatives, a Lyme flare up due to stress, and a yearning in my heart that I kept pushing aside in the name of ‘survival’ brought me to my damn knees in a whole new way.
When the last batch of crystals went missing in late October, I finally broke for real. I accepted the obstacles were indeed on purpose in some Divinely guided way and that even though we had almost no money left, and all I wanted to do was to try to revive the business with the scraps I had available…that my true invitation was to go all in on my higher path.
Making jewelry has been a part of my life since I was 9 years old. I would make designs for people that I knew that were going through a hard time. I would say prayers and make them something, hoping that, like the saints, somehow it would magically help them through their tribulation. I left and came back to crystals and jewelry many times in my life.
Each time it has been there for me to carry me from one chapter to another, whether through the early and very rough stages of Lyme disease in my 20’s, to a very sad time as my first round of being a professional musician failed, to when it was still waiting for me when I graduated from my Master’s program.
But making jewelry was never intended to be my main squeeze…it is my companion and my outlet. It is an offering and it is part of what keeps my inner child alive. Music is much the same for me, however until recently I have always held back on integrating that part of myself fully.
I have known for a long time that I needed to DEVOTE myself to my music path while also being more engaged with my plant medicine path. However, I have been so damn preoccupied with survival and ensuring designs were made and social media posts were seen that I truly couldn’t devote anything to anyone. So in October, when the last batch of crystals went missing, I knew it was now or never. I knew that I had to give my heart to this path, no matter how scary it was.
I wish that I could tell you that from that moment everything seamlessly came together…happily ever after…yada yada. Maybe in a few months that will be the story, who knows. But I will tell you that I haven’t felt this aligned EVER now that I have devoted myself to music and the plants. I know in my bones that I am doing what I am meant to do…this is my earth bound assignment for this life. And in addition, things HAVE been flowing since I surrendered to what was. The music path is flowing nicely, and the plant medicine path has been growing with ease as well.
Even though I am still not sure that these paths will financially provide in time, I do know that this is the way, and that the Divine has led me in some strange entanglements to bring me to some of the most beautiful parts of my life. And one more gift arrived once I let go…the missing package of crystals was delivered safely.
This collection features some of the missing jewels. Part II of this collection will be here in the coming months.
This collection represents more than just some cute designs, but it is an offering from a very deep and resolute part of my heart. One that wishes the highest path for you, my friends, my community. A blessing from human to human as our Divine spirits navigate this wild and mysterious experience we call life.
From my heart to yours <3
Xo,
Greta
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